This Is It! Let it simmer

So, it's almost fitting that just days before this movie came out i received my tickets from the This Is It concert i was supposed to see September 27th in London. And here comes the movie, that i've been waiting for ever since it was announced a few months ago.

This is the first time that i haven't felt like a loser for going to the movies alone. I had my seat dead center, front row, ready to go. And the atmosphere was perfect. All MJ fans, ready to go. And as soon as the opening credits came on, dead silence took over. Then first sight of Michael, and applause and screams just run through the audience. Not the same as being at a concert, but the usual screams and "MIIIIIICHAEL!!!" screams were coming from everywhere. Tears were coming down people's faces and people reaching for him.

At times watching it, i caught myself realizing that he wasn't with us anymore and it became somewhat eery and sad. But watching him throughout, you just realize what we lost and what we'll probably never have again. Even in a rehearsal, not going all out, you still see him at a higher level than most. And it's funny, u know he wanted to go all out but he was just saving himself for the show. I can only imagine what the actual show would've been like with him up there, feeling the crowds and just giving his all. I think the best parts for me were Human Nature and I Just Can't Stop Loving You. Songs where you just hear him sing. And you hear that voice, clear and strong, and i just can't believe how much he still had. Just standing there, singing to his crew and you hear the emotion and the love he put into everything. The single song that probably would've been the most fun i think is Smooth Criminal. That's always been my favorite song of his in concert, and what they did with it this time around is totally different from every other performance of it he's ever done. Even just watching these clips, my mind was being blown. But just hearing how strong his voice was, how much energy he had. Watching this, it just takes you to a place that you didn't know existed. And watching him move around, even in just a rehearsal, you can clearly see that there will only be ONE Michael Jackson. It's funny, everything was just so effortless, yet it was still perfect and beautiful. If you've ever been lucky enough to see him on stage, then you too know what genius is.

I think i'm strong enough to admit, that I did choke up during it once. During the J5 medley, singing I'll Be There, seeing the clips of the Jackson 5 and him as a little kid, and it hits home that he's gone. I'll Be There was actually the first song i listened to straight through after he died, and it was the one that hit me hardest. But he still sang it beautifully, and had everyone in the theater putting up their lighters and waving their arms from side to side.

All people were thinking about was that he was too thin and not able to do it anymore, but it never even occurred to me that he was too thin and frail because he was rocking out with so much energy and passion. You can tell that this is what he wanted, and he put all he could into it. This Is It is, at its core, an insight into a creative genius, and people should take notes on what it means to create perfection. It's a show that would've had people talking for years. And would've shown people a Michael that they weren't ready for. This is perfection. This is showing a side of Michael we haven't seen. It's just funny to hear him tell people what to do, and he's not a jerk about it, cause it's like they can't really argue with him. He knows his music, and he knows what it should sound like. You just listen to him, and doing it the best you can. This is Michael. This is the man.

It sucks that not even one full show was able to be done, but at least we got something. We get to see Michael doing what he did best. What made him the greatest of all time. No talk of his personal life, his family, his face. Just him on stage. And for 2 hours, we were able to have him back.

They claim that the dvd will have new never before seen footage. I'm still hopeful that one day they'll release full shows from the Bad Tour and Victory tours to show us more awesomeness. But when the DVD comes out you owe it to yourself to own it. You can keep a piece of Michael with you forever. And if you don't go and see This Is It you might hate yourself for missing out. Quite simply, the greatest concert there never was.

We miss you. We love you. Thank you Michael.